The Gift of the Crow

Have you heard about the little girl that feeds the crows? She feeds them and they bring her little trinkets of tradsies or thanks.  Rod and I decided to feed the crows. We put out fine quality unsalted peanuts in the shell. The crows, jays, and squirrels are all very adamant that they get a share. We even had a little female duck come and give it shot. 

Our crows either hate us or else they think they are very funny.

Gift 1: a piece of concrete from someone else's sidewalk or driveway. 

Gift 2: an empty chocolate pudding container replete with ants.

Maybe they are just new to the whole tradsies thing. Maybe they will improve.

Rita Moffat Died

My mom messaged on facebook a couple of days ago. She told me that my uncle thinks I need to see a neurosurgeon because I have some symptoms very similar to my cousins--and their thing is a hereditary thing from our grandma. Then, in the middle of that discussion, she typed this: Rita Moffat died.  That's nothing to anyone who may read this blog. That's not the point.

Rita Moffat--the girl with a mental age of 7 or maybe 8 years old. Shy, very quiet, speech impediment of some sort, incredibly poor, clothes very old and clearly worn out, and overweight.  As if a mental deficiency wasn't enough, she was overweight. 

Bear with me.

I knew Rita for about 3 years. Three school years. In the entire scheme of life, three school years is nothing, barely a blip.  For poor Rita, every school year must have been an eternity.

She was the butt of too many jokes for the reasons I listed above. I remember watching and seeing that no one seemed to recognize her as a human being. Our small school had several of those, but Rita especially caught my eye.  And my pity. 

Then, one day, stuff fell out of her locker. People walked by like it was a non-event.  And to them that's exactly what it was because they had failed to notice that, for all of her issues, she was a human being. But in that moment, she looked lost. And my pity changed. I stopped and helped her.  It was one moment.

I didn't know what that moment meant to her.  It didn't occur to me that she should have been passed by or mocked.  In that moment, she was a girl who needed a friend.  

This is not an epistle about how great I am.  I am nothing. I am, and I have always been, that temp from Chiswick. But that day I was the most fabulous person in the universe.  From then on, she would give me little waves in the hallway.  I could see she hoped I wouldn't ignore her now that the crisis was over.  I didn't. I waved. I smiled.  

And then, one day after school, I was heading out the door to walk home and she was on her bus.  I saw her. And she smiled at me.  That was the first time I'd ever seen Rita Moffat smile. And she smiled at me.  

I only knew her three years. After 9th grade, I changed schools and I never saw Rita again. I thought of her often. I hoped she was okay. I hoped someone else had bothered to notice she was a real live human being, but I don't know.

And in the end, her eulogy is mine. "She always ask[ed] about you because you would talk to her and be friendly" Mom typed. Oh, Lord, I hope I wasn't the only one who was that person for her. I hope someone else came along.
But there are thousands of Rita Moffats surrounding us every day. Think. Can you see their humanity? Can you care for just a moment?

When Reading Leads to Learning

I was recently feeling curious about the Potato Famine and so began to read about it. One name kept appearing, Charles Trevelyan. I couldn't decide whether he was a good guy or a bad guy or whether he fell somewhere else along the line. He could have been misguided or he may have been utterly self-seeking. I began looking for information about him. What I found was precious little. I had to settle on a biographical account written by a Trevelyan. I guess William Manchester didn't feel that this family was worth noting.

Now, I'm not too far in to the biography but it's caused me to research other aspects like, for instance, The Clapham Sect. I've also got written down to read about Malthus. I think that I may not need to finish the biography because after I research those two aspects, I'll have an extremely fair ruler by which to judge the way he handled the famine. At least, I believe so because from what little I've read about both at this point can only merge into the reasoning behind his actions.

Reading non-fiction isn't easy; it always leads to needing to read about something else. Reading fiction is easy. But, reading non-fiction can be highly rewarding and it doesn't have to be school, either.  It can just be fun to learn something new. Or to remember what you once knew.

The Supplement Continues

Okay, I started taking Nature's Sunshine Master Gland Formula. It's helping.

Yesterday was grocery day. I usually need to lie down and sleep after I finish which means the  groceries don't get put away since grocery day is also church night. Yesterday, I didn't need to sleep. I needed to get off my feet for a bit, but I made it through. I got most of the groceries put away before time for church. I slept well and have energy to finish what needs done this morning. Also, Wednesday I did a lot of painting around the house--which is a funny thing anyway since I hadn't planned on painting much more than some letters for a craft. (My paint lid wouldn't come off and I had to mutilate it beyond reuse to get it off, so I had to use as much paint as I could.) So, Wednesday was very active and Thursday was very active and I still have motivation today. 

I feel that, overall, my sleep has improved. I'm waking with a brighter outlook. I even feel like I might start walking again. 

The only negative I have about it is that I cannot take it too close to bedtime or I won't sleep. 

Supplement update 1

So, things get a little rough when Rod gets home after a business trip because he doesn't sleep well the first couple of nights which means I don't sleep either. That said, there were a couple of naps.

But, there's a sunny spot. My typical feeling on overcast days is one of a thick, cobwebby something behind my eyes. I feel like I should be able to scrape the cobwebs away and have clear thinking abilities.  Through the past few overcast days, I've not had that feeling so much. This is lovely. 

Again, I know that it may not mean much to the average person who hasn't struggled; and that's okay. It means a lot to me. It means a lot to my family because I can do more and engage more with them.

Fingers crossed.