So, I keep buying smaller and smaller sizes. I am currently sitting here in a size 10 pair of jeans and I'm thinking they are a little loose. And I'm thinking that I don't think I look fat sitting here. But then I see myself in a mirror and I still see myself 30 pounds ago. I can still see the lumpy bumpy mess that I was. Rod tells me he keeps doing a double-take because he has to figure out who I am. So, I'm obviously looking good, so to speak. But, not to me. Not really.
I guess it takes a while to get past that fat girl block. When will I see the me in the mirror that others see?
"You are looking really good." (Thanks, I guess. I'm wearing Spanx.)
"You are wasting away." (Well, I still have plenty of fat to lose, you know?)
Do we ever see ourselves how we are after weight loss? Or do we always see ourselves how we were? I guess these remain to be answered. For myself at least.
BTW, I am in my goal size(s) but I still have 15-20 pounds left to lose.
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